I’ve been looking.
I’ll admit it.
I’ve been looking for something that has never been there, still not there and may never be there.
So I told myself to stop looking. Stop looking because people say it will come when you aren’t looking.
I stopped looking.
I stopped looking but with intention.
So I guess you can say I never really stopped.
I was still subconsciously looking.
But now, I am done looking.
And not for alternative motives. I’m seriously just done.
Why should I be the one to look, when I am the one wanting to be found?
I remind myself that right now there are so many other important things I could be concerning my time with.
No more looking.
The search is over & I am relieved.
besides the acting, script and other typical things..
is the SOUNDTRACK..
Oh how I love watching a movie with excellent songs.
Usually, they’re chick flicks…to name a few: crazy stupid love, the vow, going the distance, 500 days of summer, like crazy, etc.
oh how good they are!!! and how i wish to buy all the soundtracks!!
who knew that music could make such an impact on a movie?
you know how there’s all these things that say, I wonder what my future hubby/wife is doing right now?
so it got me thinking….what if your “soulmate” is someone in your class right now and you just don’t know it yet? what if you go ten years without even really hearing or seeing them, yet by fate you guys come across each other’s paths and end up being “the one” for each other.
isn’t that weird to think about?
what if the person you end up with is someone who you used to hate?
just goes to show you that you can’t predict the future no matter how much you want to.
i kinda hate it when girls take pictures of themselves.
like i dont understand why. i mean i guess its cool to take it of yourself when you have a cute outfit on. or when youre with a group of friends and youre being camera whoreish.
but i think its so weird to have a “photo shoot” in your living room. and when youre the one taking the pictures yourself, no friend is helping you. youre all alone….
i can just imagine it: setting up the timer on their camera, placing it on their coffee table, while the quickly pose in some “cute” or “sexy” way.
yeah, not cute…i guess its all just very myspace to me.
GIRLS WHO POST STATUSES ON FACEBOOK ABOUT HOW THEY HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIENDS AND HOW THEY’RE ALL SMILES AND JUST SO “IN LOVE.”
I’M NOT HATING ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP. AND I AM DEFINITELY NOT JEALOUS. BUT I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU FEEL THE NEED TO POST THAT EVERY TEN MINUTES? BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? NO ONE GIVES ANY SHIT. I’M SORRY FOR THE PROFANITY. BUT IT’S JUST TRUE!!!! NO ONE CARES ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU LOVE YOUR BOYFRIEND. I GET IT, YOUR YOUNG, YOU’RE IN LOVE. BUT I JUST DON’T THINK YOU NEED TO BE PUBLICIZING IT EVERY DAMN DAY. HOW ABOUT INSTEAD OF FILLING UP MY FEED ON YOUR “UNCONDITIONAL LOVE” FOR YOUR BOYFRIEND OF THE MONTH, GO WRITE IN YOUR DIARY.QUIT PARADING YOUR PERFECT RELATIONSHIP THAT YOU ARE SO UNBELIEVABLY OBSESSED WITH OUT OF FACEBOOK. GET A TUMBLR.
I’M SORRY THIS IS JUST A HUGE PET PEEVE. AND I LOVE LOVE. I LOVE RELATIONSHIPS. SO IF THIS IS PISSING ME OFF, YOU KNOW ITS A PROBLEM.
STOP BEING AN ATTENTION SEEKING WHORE AND GTFO.
I’M OFFICIALLY UNFRIENDING YOU.
I’M GOING TO STOP YELLING NOW AND switch back to my normal tone of voice.
(i have writers block about my college essay, so i choose to write something that comes to mind easily and let the creative juices flow).
friendships are odd. i mean just think of how they even came about. how did you meet the person that you have become so close too? i bet seventy percent of the time it was from an awkward or totally random situation. its odd how suddenly something can just spark a friendship that will last for years. for example, i never thought that i would be close with the people i am today. who knew that from just having a few classes with them throughout high school, it would develop into a great friendship. who knew that one of my closest friends would be the girl that i once despised. its just so strange!!! its crazy that from the hundreds of people at school and in your life you were able to somehow find those who share the same interests with you. i guess this also goes for finding your future hubby/wifey. crazy thought. and i say its odd because just think about certain friendships you have with those people. ninety nine percent of the time youre doing something completely crazy and acting creepy/stalkerish, saying the dumbest things and laughing histerically.
which brings me to my last point. because of all that^ there is just something really beautiful about friendships.